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.​.​.​I've Accepted the Things I Can't Change

by year over year

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Sarina Tbh this man will never see this, but ive went to see him live a couple of times now, and during his set I've tried to not listen because the lyrics are so intense and I didn't wanna cry in public but I caved this time and just bought all his music, and am now openly crying because they lyrics are so well written. This guy has a huge talent and I'm super happy to support him in what he does.
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1.
i'm hanging all these cigarettes belmont blue, from the ceiling fan in my living room, like the hue in your eyes or the bruises that you left, under my skin your the same as every kid, as soon as the lights go dim. leave me alone, you disappear like the smoke on my clothes you're just another name that cuts to the bone, every saturday you're there, and I hope you like the smell of his hair, as much as he likes yours. i'm hanging all these cigarettes rooftop red, from the curve in my lip it seeps in to the ceiling of my lungs, and leaves that taste on my breath I know you hate, we're all the same under my skin, as soon as the lights go dim. i can't hold smoke in my lungs like you do, but i can hold on love in my heart, better than you. my hands can't hold onto anything, without it falling apart. i can't forget his name, its the only thing i think of everyday. i hope sunday morning you wake, filled with alcohol and shame.
2.
all i am, is a pillow filled with sand on your concrete floor or a flower nailed to your bedroom door. reminding me, I am never happy where I am. all i am, is a pillow in the sand on your beachfront shore or a wedding dress at your favourite funeral store my hands are shaking from trying to forget, i sleep alone in a cold and vacant bed, my head is an empty balloon attached to my neck, my stomachs filled with butterflies from trying to forget, they fall out of my head, taking teeth and saliva out with them.
3.
you sowed seeds inside of my head, they turned into beautiful flowers and then died, as soon as you left, but I'll keep on watering them i know i've never been so low and my pen pals won't believe what you did to me and i'll be back here in the summer of the year the smell of your hair the sweat on his clothes while your out drinking i've never been so alone i know my heart was a couch for you to sleep on and wake up in the morning like nothing ever happened and do the same next weekend while life keeps repeating watch the seasons change, while you stay the same and life will repeat, but i won't let you do that to me.
4.
you found alcohol and a list full of reasons why i am so awful but you that i never felt so fucking small i've learned to work with what i've got and crawl back to what i thought i was the trees shed their leaves in front of what used to be a home, but now that i'm alone i've never felt so cold or uncomfortable you found friends the kind that you know are only looking for sex on the weekends and they take cheap pictures with disposable cameras that will be replaced sooner then us. the spark we made turned into a fire and it burned down everything and left me as a liar and now i'm left with this map full of holes i've never felt so alone and a list full of fake friends that you will never see again will quickly show you what i mean by "it's not me, its them" i've lost hope in learning how to cope.
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Vancouver 05:26
i cut my hair and i shaved my beard you told me theres nothing left for you here you teared up and choked said "i love you, but i'm leaving to the west coast" the snow kept falling into may all i wanted was to keep you safe what a brilliant display of hate when i love you but you don't feel the same way i cut my loses and you cut your ties but i can tell where you struggled to keep this alive and tying the rope together won't make it hold any better the weather let me down this summer when you ran back to him, to a love of another and i just wanted to be the one that you called when you thought of home when you thought of high school and looked back through your yearbook and beside the picture of me it reads "i loved this, but theres nothing left for you in this city" and your eyes are so comforting but the heaviness of your words passes down your throat like smoke through a screen door and weighs you down like i never could. the bruises on your knees say more then the shallow breaths and shallow words you speak. i wish your brain was farther from your mouth so you could mean the words you breathe. and honestly i'm nothing maybe i was made to be torn apart I'm not ready for a new start. dear god the mistakes i've made have been evened by karma, my hands are always shaking i'm trying so hard to keep them steady, i'm concentrating too much, breathing through tired lungs, i'm shivering so much my grave must be a dance floor is that what you wished for? the shallow waters crash inside your head leaving your eyes the bluest they've ever been, you coexist as i wash away and become irrelevant. the rosary beads you gave me are slowly fading i can't eat, i can't sleep, i can't dream of anything besides you i wake up everyday on a damaged sofa in an empty living room, i don't want to call home again to a house where no ones answering but i'm so homesick, i'm so nervous i'll write my deathwish in your favourite lipstick. is this sinking in yet? i'd like to think the emptiness won't last more then a weekend, but theres nothing i can say and theres nothing you could do to stop me from crying over you. i wish i felt the same way but i've accepted the things i can't change

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year over year is dorian pintaric

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released June 2, 2015

Written and performed by Dorian Pintaric

Recorded/Mixed/Mastered by Mark Troyer at Evergreen Sound in Calgary, AB

Artwork by Brandynn Pope

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